Singing the Blues

Hummm, ever have one of those days where you think about your life too much and it gets you down?

I am having one of those days. I have been blessed in life with wonderful parents, a good job, a husband I love, and children that light up my life... I love where I live, the vehicle I drive...I am blessed.

Except for one thing...

My whole life growing up, all I ever wanted to be was a mom. Sometimes dropping my kids off at daycare just rips my heart out. This is not how I pictured my life as a mom. Now I LOVE the daycare my kids go...another blessing...but I want to be with them!

Our mornings are rushed, and by the time we get home we usually have 1 1/2 hours until bedtime. I feel ripped off. Those of you who have children know that they grow so fast, and I feel like I am missing so much of the most important thing in my life!

I would sacrifice a LOT...cable, the car I drive, and a LOT more to be able to have the chance to stay home or work from home and be with my children. Days like this it is hard to be at work, my mind drifts to what the kids may be doing and I can't wait to pick them up and kiss them!!!

Now I KNOW that being a stay at home mom is NOT a glamorous job, it is one of the hardest jobs there is out there but as a mom, I want to be able to mold my children into who they are...that is of utmost importance to me.

If you think of me, please pray that God shows me what direction to take and that I listen...that listening part is 1/2 the battle isn't it!

Cheers,
Beth