Getting to know myself… growth and life lessons

Getting to know myself… growth and life lessons

One thing I have learned about myself over the years is that I am very protective of those I love. I am a connector, and I love to connect deeply. I am a quality time person.

I am loyal, sometimes to a fault. When someone I love hurts, I have this strange part of me that hurts the way they hurt. This means I tend to adopt the hurts of those I love, I have to be careful of this trait as at times it does not serve me well.

I am sensitive, sometimes also to a fault. Sometimes I put too much weight on what others think about me, if others are upset with me, or like me…although I am getting a lot better at that as I draw closer to Jesus.

My number one spiritual gift is compassion. I am a walking, bleeding heart. This can be something great as it drives me to always want to help, to have a desire to DO and to be God’s hands and feet. This can be bad when something hits me wrong in an office meeting (ha ha, thank God I have been where I am at for 10 years now…they know me).

I get excited easily, which can be fun since it gets others excited… but can be bad when what I get excited about let’s me down.

I am faithful, loyal. I love life! I am not materialistic, and that trait turns me off in others. People and realationships are primary in my lfe!

On the flip side, I crave honest, real communication with others. I am confident in myself and my decision making skills. I am straight forward with my thoughts and feelings, although I work hard to make sure that my delivery is not abrasive, I am sure that there are times I could do better. I get impatient sometimes when I want instant results…God is working on me with this one as I type this.

I don’t like the unknown. I read this analogy this week that said…sometimes in the unknown we act like a toddler having a temper tantrum in the middle of a room of gift wrapped presents. Not a flattering picture, but this is what the “unknown” has done to me in the past. I am working hard at the unknowns in my life now to not act the same way! I know that trusting God through the “unknowns” will bring me to a great reward, even if it is not what the world determines to be a gift…if that makes any sense.

I find that when I sit in silence, another issue that God is working on in me…that He speaks. I need to listen better, and put myself in the position to listen.

Right now I feel like I am in a position where I am growing, learning to trust God, I am being challenged in many areas and I just hope that in each challenge I look to Him first. Otherwise I make a mess of things on my own.

Cheers, Beth